Today might have been the most trying day at home to date.
Sam Man decided that 4:45 a.m. was the perfect time to begin his day. (Mama didn't fall asleep until about 2 a.m.) He started it out by wailing at the top of his lungs to let us know something was wrong, namely he was hungry, again. We, of course, spent the next two hours playing detective. I tried Orajel to combat all the pain his new teeth are causing with no luck. I tried singing to him, cuddling him, covering him back up, and changing him, still no luck. We then tried to give him a bottle, which soothed him for about a half hour before he was crying again. We finally ended up getting up for good at 6:30 a.m. after being awake for awhile. Matt fed Sam solid breakfast which then put Sammy in a great mood, until the tiredness set in.
Adri was also extremely irritable this morning, having been woken up early by Sammy's crying. She spent the morning in drama mode, whining about anything and everything and throwing temper tantrums when she didn't get exactly what she wanted at exactly the moment she wanted it. By 10 a.m. my nerves were shot and I suggested that we all go lay down for a nap and quiet time. Apparently this was exactly what Adri was thinking because she told me "I'm tired, I'm want to lay in your bed with you." Sammy went right to sleep without a fuss too...Perfect!
When we woke up, we were all in a good mood. Right before we went to sleep I had made Adri a new movie of our home videos, complete with her dancing shows. She was super excited to watch it which helped her lunch disappear quicker than normal. :) Sammy took his time eating and ate everything he could possibly fit in his little tummy. Once again I ask, where does he put it all??? I'm beginning to think he has a tapeworm or something because he isn't gaining that much weight, but he eats like a little piglet!
After lunch I had the brilliant idea to go back to Aldersgate to return something we had borrowed and visit friends. Our visit went well until the end when we were speaking with Sammy's old teacher. Adri decided once again that her listening ears weren't working. She would purposely do whatever I told her not to, just to get a rise out of me. I'm guessing it had to do with the fact that Ms. Jessica and I were talking about Sammy and Adri wasn't the star of the show, regardless though, it's not an excuse for her behavior. I was extremely embarrassed, and wouldn't be surprised if they even want our children back at the daycare center. :)
When we arrived back home, Adri spent the rest of the afternoon in her room thinking about how she had acted (and screaming at me as well as crying at the top of her lungs--have to be as dramatic as possible to get the full effect). She then spent the rest of the night behaving exactly the same way as before, doing exactly what I told her not to do. I finally made her go to bed. Adri's mantra of the day has been "but I want to listen!", which is said as soon as she gets in trouble and looses a privilege. It's time for her to learn that she needs to listen before she gets in trouble, not as a result of getting in trouble.
I feel like this blog doesn't do justice in describing the events of today, and perhaps I come off as whining.. There were a few other happenings, but without going into detail, it was more of the same...Over and over and over all throughout today. I love my children more than anything in this world, but it's days like today that I have to take a deep breath and realize that they are watching and learning from me as well as being my own teachers, teaching me patience, unconditional love, compassion, anger and stress management, etc.
In light of today's events and my stress level, I'd like to post a beautiful poem that I found last night. While reading it it actually made me cry and think about what wonderful children I have been blessed with, even when things aren't going perfectly. Things aren't always going to be perfect, but at least I'm lucky enough to have my babies to enjoy through all the moments.
A POEM: TO MY CHILD
http://inspirelife-gelo.blogspot.com/2007/11/poem-to-my-child.html
Just for this morning, I am going to
smile when I see your face and laugh
when I feel like crying.
Just for this morning, I will let you
choose what you want to wear,
and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step
over the laundry and pick you up and take you to
the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the
dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put
that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug
the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with
you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell
once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and
whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one
if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won't worry
about what you are going to be when you grow up, or
second guess every decision I have made where you are
concerned.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you
help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you
trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us
to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can
have both toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in
my arms and tell you a story about how you were
born and how much I love you.
Just for this evening, I will let you
splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you
stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.
Just for this evening, I will snuggle
beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.
Just for this evening when I run my
finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be
grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.
I will think about the mothers and
fathers who are searching for their missing children, the
mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's
graves instead of their bedrooms. The mothers
and fathers who are in hospital rooms
watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming
inside that little body
And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold
you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then,
that I will thank God for you, and ask him for
nothing, except one more day.............
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